Waiting For R.L. to Show

I woke up noticing how I am in the waiting mode.

I can tell from the anxious feeling that is located 

just behind my breast bone 

and at the back of my neck.

Waiting for Real Life to show up.

Waiting for this rotation to be over.

Waiting to find out what’s next.

This isn’t the right moment.

This isn’t the way I should be waking up.

This isn’t the time I should be having.

This isn’t the best I can do.

But just now, as I was thinking about this,

I noticed that if I drop the judgements,

If I say to myself,

Everything not only changes,

Has changed,

Is at this moment in the process of changing,

I notice that I’m not anxious any more.

I notice that I’m breathing again,

I notice that I’m just in a moment that

By the time I notice,

has passed.

And I’ve survived again.

I’ve gotten up and come over here,

And I’ve started flowing with what is

instead of what isn’t.

I notice I feel glad now.

I notice I’m not waiting.

I notice I’m not judging this.

I notice I’m just talking out loud

To you and to me….

And to no one and to everyone

And it requires no one and everyone to do this

Because,

Well, nothing actually is required here.

It’s just that no matter what you are doing or feeling

At this moment…

You and I are in the same moment 

and this doesn’t require anything of us

Except to notice.

Hello out there.

Hello in here.

I feel us rubbing shoulders

Holding hands

Gazing out at what we’ve created

Looking into one another

Smiling,

Breathing,

Smiling.

Sufficient unto this moment is this moment.

I am I am.

Loving you as myself is loving our shared moment.

And the shared life

Which is the same.

I read these words, these symbols

And smile at how many it takes

To express something so

Expressly simple as

Being here

Now.

:-)